Saturday, December 23, 2006 @12:00:00 AM
just got back from rachels house.the christmas gathering was really fun!swam in the afternoon.chao yang and me tried to teach lester and rachel to dive.lester almost got it though(:mmmm then the bbq.didnt eat much.and then the games.yeah all fun.the last part when we sang we are the reason,i saw a really weird vision.it was something that happened to me last year and throughout until now and then it went to the crucification and then to bethlehem.its quite scary.i still havent figured out what the Lord wants to tell me from this.i teared.yeah..oh and i wanted to stay over but my mom wouldnt let me.guess what?im never gonna be allowed to stay over unless its camp-.-urgh.why?cos my mom didnt when she was younger.what a stupid reason lah.i mean seriously.my mom thinks that i shouldnt have too much fun and she tries to stop me.staying over is a no at my friends place why?cos she never did when she was younger.so is she trying to say that since she couldnt enjoy that i cant?maybe i'm looking at this in a wrong way but thats what i see for now.she told me that im already very blessed to be able to go to this christmas gathering thing and not push it.yes i know im blessed but whats wrong with just ONE night over.it wont KILL.shes getting over protecting and i dont like it.i dont know why shes like that either.urgh.anyway cos of this i dont dare to ask her if im allowed to go to the navteens gathering.so im going for rehearsal instead and then back and then go with my cousins and aunty to my moms friends party which I WAS OBVIOUSLY FORCED TO GO TO BY MY MOM-.-this is getting a bit too much for me.whats worse christmas is coming and so many things are happening to me which kills my christnas spirit.ah well,i'll try and be positive.i'll think of this as a learning journey that God has put me in.i think its to teach me what christmas really IS about.yeah i do know what its about but i think God wants me to really FEEL it and not just know.well i shall seek the Lord and find out why everything actually happens and what he really wants to tell me.i know that He wants to tell me a lot i just need to tune in and listen to Him
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'serving God!
'BENandJERRYS
'candy,chocolates,cereal
'tanning,sports
'shopping
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'golf
'studying
'creepy crawlies,horror movies
:AWESOME STUFFS;D
'hard abs,leg and arm muscles
'that shiny blue small nike soccer ball i saw at gallen sports
'runners
'mcfly's album;room on the 3rd floor/just my luck/motion in the ocean
'nickelback's album;all the right reasons
'avril lavigne's album;the best damn thing
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falloutboy's album;infinity on high
'good charlotte's album;good morning revival
'jesse mccartney's album;right where you want me
'the fray's album;how to save a life
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a new jacket to replace my converse one
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