later im off to rachels place.nows raining and im praying hard that it doesnt later.im also praying hard that i can go to Tjunction tomorrow for the navteens christmas party gathering thing.

christmas is in 2 days and i feel horrible.i mean im trying my best not to let this affect my christmas mood but i guess my best isnt good enough.i feel like theres no more trust between us or whatever.somehow its different.im not overreacting cos im not the only one who thinks so too.that somethings different.the trust part is only me.i know we've gone over this before but still i dont feel that way.okay i havent heard the full story yet but would it kill you to tell me without me asking?and whats more is that you...nevermind...i mean seriously.i dont know who to trust if i cant trust you as much anymore.